Adrian 1year 1 week life

Assalamualaikum

Good evening and monday blues..


Adrian already a week past from his 1year birthday.. nothing special event on his birthday.. just dinner at western resto.. buy him a cup cake.. (not a cake.. because mama on diet haha) and abah bought him a special toy lorry.. (mainan dah banyak.. abah nak beli yang mahal.. mama jadi menteri kewangan... tak payah beli..)

Alhamdullilah.. semoga jadi anak yg soleh.. diberi kelebihan, kebijaksanaan dan kebaikan sepanjang hidupmu.. menjadi insan yang bermanafaat untuk insaniah manusia dan sentiasa berbuat kebaikan.. diberikan umur yang berpanjangan dan kesihatan yang baik serta dijauhkan dari kejahatan dan kejahilan..

I remember I did promised to update about Ian everyday.. but I realised that I couldn't keep up with that promised.. however.. I tried Insha Allah.. whenever I'm free I would write about him.. my intention that oneday he could understand and read everything that I had wrote about him as a memory of how his childhood life was like..

At this moment Ian already starting showing his skill of standing... he would stand anywhere.. either on the floor.. on the bed.. and he would always show his excitement to be able to stand on his feet.. his going to be able to walk soon I guess.. It was so super exciting to see him standing for the first time.. nowadays whenever I saw him standing.. we would clap our hand together and he would smile and laugh at the same time..

Ian first year was up and down journey.. being a mother at 40s I imagine myself to be more calm and able to control my anger.. however that was really hard to do.. there are times that sometimes I couldn't able to handle my anger whenever he  would go up and down.. left and right on the bed when it comes to bedtime.. I used to become a dragon without the breathing fire hahaha.. bedtime is the hardest part to handle.. even abah always give away those time to mama to handle.. whenever I asked him to put Ian to sleep.. he will always said.. mama lah tidurkan... sabar jelah..

I always had my guilty feeling whenever I end-up feel frustrated and shout at him.. its not easy to hold myself from scolding him.. sometimes I put my hand on him.. cubit.. whenever that happen he will cried loudly.. kadang tak cubit pun nangis macam kena cubit.. that would happen when we took away things from him.. or when I'm away from his sight... p dapur.. p toilet.. dah letak dalam walker pun melalak juga walaupun duk sebelah mama kat dapur...

People said that this will only last up till he is 12 years old.. the moment he come teenager.. that his life will be replace by friends and gadget... Even now when he is 1 year old.. I did miss him when he his a baby... sleep most of the time.. now.. bangun je mainan.. bangun je main... hahaha.. turun naik katil.. and the most annoying things that I don't like he tend to throw things around... baling botol susu.. puting.. mainan.. usik itu.. usik ini.. gosh.. dah jalan esok.. harapnya lebih baik perangainya hahaha...

Oh yes.. It been a week that his baby boy cousin was given birth by my little sister... so this raya ada geng lah.. their birthday was 4 day apart.. dedua lahir bulan february...